can i not breathe in?

cause its hurting so bad. :(

and to have someone like you with me through my ups and downs,
i wouldn't ask for anything more. no words can express how
i'm feeling right now, except for gratitude for having someone like
you in my life right now and for the rest of my life.

Sensitivity.

So, I’ve been said to be an over sensitive person by someone very dear to me. An individual will define sensitivity differently, but most can agree that it is easily being hurt emotionally. I don’t know if I’m acting over sensitively, but I’m sure of my feelings, I’m hurt.

Picture this, you’re hungry and so you decided to just post it up on Facebook saying FUCKING HUNGRY. (I mean it’s normal, isn’t it?) So what would you, as a partner, do?

1. Comment and say, “Go eat lah!”
2. Comment and Like and say, “I ALSO FUCKING HUNGRY!”
3. Message on cellphone, “You haven’t eaten since breakfast. Go have your dinner.”
4. Message on cellphone, “Why haven’t you gone for dinner?”
5. Message on Facebook, “PERGI MAKAN LAH”
6. Message on Facebook, “Don’t be a dimwit. Go and eat, you’re not young anymore for someone to tell you to eat when you’re hungry.”

So tell me, what should I feel?

So seriously, am I being over sensitive?

i have warn you against her and again i am going to warn you.

don't regret at the end of the day, it'll be too late.

i dont know what im feeling now, im just so tired from all the thinking.
all these while you kept your peace, you were silent, not a single thing from you.
i dont want to blame your ego, but i have no other things i could blame.
i tried to do things i thought were best for me, i tried and i think i failed.
im now in the biggest shit ever, i dont know what to do, how to react.
i dont even know what to do next, put aside solutions, i dont even have a solution.
im just very tired right now and i wish you were here with me, cause i know you will make everything right,
i miss you fucking much, a thing you dont even know, a thing you dont even think.
i tried to find alternatives and now im finding it hard to accept myself,
it's not helping that it's killing me inside.

i fucking love you, sayang. :(

i haven't felt like this for a long time, i don't even know if i should be feeling this way. it's like a feeling of uncertainty, a feeling that even im not familiar with. i experienced it once, but it occurred with a particular person, not with two. this time, i don't know why it's there again, with two. i know it's wrong, i tell myself it's wrong, but i can't help this feeling. maybe it's a test, maybe it's not. give the benefit of a doubt, i am doubting it's a test. but, while i am here trying to figure out where the hell i have gone wrong or right, i don't even know where to start. this uncertainty is killing me because i know it's killing you too. :( please do know, i never did want to hurt anybody, especially you.

i have always thought that you're not ready,
but now i realize it's not you,
it's me, i'm not ready,
i'm not ready to share you with anyone else.


i miss you.