i have warn you against her and again i am going to warn you.

don't regret at the end of the day, it'll be too late.

i dont know what im feeling now, im just so tired from all the thinking.
all these while you kept your peace, you were silent, not a single thing from you.
i dont want to blame your ego, but i have no other things i could blame.
i tried to do things i thought were best for me, i tried and i think i failed.
im now in the biggest shit ever, i dont know what to do, how to react.
i dont even know what to do next, put aside solutions, i dont even have a solution.
im just very tired right now and i wish you were here with me, cause i know you will make everything right,
i miss you fucking much, a thing you dont even know, a thing you dont even think.
i tried to find alternatives and now im finding it hard to accept myself,
it's not helping that it's killing me inside.

i fucking love you, sayang. :(

i haven't felt like this for a long time, i don't even know if i should be feeling this way. it's like a feeling of uncertainty, a feeling that even im not familiar with. i experienced it once, but it occurred with a particular person, not with two. this time, i don't know why it's there again, with two. i know it's wrong, i tell myself it's wrong, but i can't help this feeling. maybe it's a test, maybe it's not. give the benefit of a doubt, i am doubting it's a test. but, while i am here trying to figure out where the hell i have gone wrong or right, i don't even know where to start. this uncertainty is killing me because i know it's killing you too. :( please do know, i never did want to hurt anybody, especially you.